My Biggest Fear came true

I have always had this fear of falling down our stairs while holding one of our babies and last night it came true. I feel like I have been beaten with a bat this morning but Zoe is just fine. I put everything I had onto protecting her so it left me open for the beating. In most cases when I fall I know how to brace myself for the least damage. You all know that I have mastered the art of falling over the years. Some of you have even commented on how graceful of a faller I am. It was around 4 a.m. and since Zoe has been sick she has not been sleeping well so I decided to take her downstairs to sleep on the couch with me so she couldn't disturb everyone else. I have no idea what happened but I some how forgot about the last four steps and fell backwards after trying to take one of the steps on the top of my left foot. I then slammed my back and head on the stairs and continued to slide the remaining way down to the hardwood floor on my well cushioned bottom. I was able to hold onto Zoe the entire time. After it was all done I sat her down on the floor as I tried to gather my aching body together and make sure it was all in it's correct position. Of course she had no idea what had just happened and was upset that I had put her down and was not feeding her. Thank God she is OK. Can't say the same about myself.